How are you feeling right now?
I woke up today and found myself dissatisfied with the night’s sleep. The night lamp which I usually turn off before going off to sleep was still on. I knew exactly what happened.
Every night before I go to sleep, I spend some time with my television. My late father was always against having a television in the bedroom, but what can be done, the content available on a television today has come a long way from being contained within a few channel numbers. Most of us have a unique taste in the content we like to view on a television especially when the televisions have started becoming as smart as our phones apparently.
So, every night the television screen regains its light, and I watch some videos or a few episodes of a show and even movies on weekends. Then when I am sure sleep is taking over my awareness, I switch off the television, turn off the lights using a smartphone application or manually and fall asleep. But the problem arises when I am unsure of it.
When I feel the sleep is visible but it has not come knocking at my door yet, I adjust myself to a more comfortable position to watch television. Now, the problem with this situation is the fifty percent chance of falling asleep without turning off the television and the lights. Thanks to modern technology, televisions nowadays can sense such kinds of things and turn themselves off on their own. I am sure there are lights which might do something similar but the lights in my room are not one of them.
The fifty percent of the time I fall asleep without turning off the television, I wake up once late in the middle of the night, I turn off the light, remove my specs, have a sip of water and go back to sleep. It doesn’t have any significant effect on my day and can be managed along.
The real problem is however on the days when I am very tired. I know what is about to happen, yet as has become the habit, I switch on the television just for a glance and it remains a glance though not as a result of my conscious effort. As soon as I turn on the television and sit down to watch it, everything becomes silent, not instantly, but fast enough for my mind not being able to grasp its occurrence. It is as if sleep was just hiding around the corner waiting for the right time to pounce with a surprise.
On days like these, I not only end up falling asleep in a posture that is not comfortable for sleeping, but I also drown in a sleep that will not break until the dawn, and when the morning comes and sleep breaks with the alarm, I wake up with this sense of uncomfortableness and I know the day might not be a bright one for me and might require an hour or two of afternoon nap. Today is one such day and right now I feel the need to prepare a cup of tea to keep my consciousness steady.
Early Morning Memories 
One response to “Amidst The Now”
Beautiful!
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