What is one way you have grown this year?
I started this year with a goal. That is unusual for me because I am usually the kind of person who when he/she wants to do something, just goes ahead and does it and does it as seriously as any other work. Yes, it carries the obvious risk of getting distracted, like doing something and suddenly reminding yourself ‘the cupboard needs to be arranged, it will just take some time, let me do it first, what if I keep it for later and it remains undone.’
Fixing a goal was growth for me. I understand this better now that the amount of energy you want to put out there will never be the same every time. Trying to step into two boats, you will eventually end up putting more effort into one and one can only hope it’s the boat that won’t bring later regret.
The goal was overall betterment, whether it came to refining my skills, keeping my health in good condition, exposing myself to more out there, reading more and understanding more, among several others.
I will say I am doing poorly, a lot of what I planned has not happened yet and the year, it has just flown by and before you know it, it’s the middle of June. Something is wrong with the clock too, every time I look at it, the time is like a deliberate fast forward. I just don’t have enough time, yet there is a lot that I want to do.
Time and again I come across these people, who claim they manage by sleeping less, a few hours maybe and it allows them to work more. I have juggled through the idea, and I know someone who ended up in the hospital doing just that and then changed his line of career entirely, so I am not too enthusiastic about it. But I am also not one of those people who think ‘things will work out’, no they don’t, you have to work on things. It’s like a complicated knot, no matter how much you believe it will just open if you pull the rope hard, it won’t, you have to give it time and effort and only then with the utmost satisfaction it opens.
I can see cracks in my system of doing things, I have ventured through the options and experimented with solutions, some things became better, others not so much. Nonetheless it’s like ticking the boxes, while also being aware the tick mark does not disappear while you are going for the other boxes. One at a time. It will happen with the right effort, and only beyond genuine effort, efficient planning and constant will power to continue the grind, I can see things falling into place.
An honourable mention of the fulfilling days. No, it’s not the one during vacation. It’s the one that ends with ‘all right, this one went great, I just hope there are more like this’.
Written by Anuran Chatterji
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